Thought it was time for a bit of an honesty hour. I was reading Xan’s blog and came across this post on getting out of the blogging slump (which, PSA, I’m totally in) and it inspired to me to come clean to all of you fabulous readers.
I’m in SUCH A BIG SLUMP.
Blogging slump is killing me. I feel unmotivated to do reviews, questioning why I blog in the first place, and feeling just all around not interested in my blog. This past month the thought of “why don’t I just stop?” cross my mind so. many. times. But, I’ve decided to stick it out. The last time this happened to me I was able to jump back in by shaking up my content, so I’ve decided I need to do that.
This blog might turn into more of a lifestyle + book review blog. I think it’s basically just going to be a place where I post whatever I darn well please, and I’m honestly over the moon about that. (As I write those words there’s this pressure lifted off of my chest!) Start expecting more posts from me on a variety of topics, from NYC to college to books to music, movies, dogs, memes. WHO KNOWS.
However, this semester is going to be insanely busy for me. I’ve got a really exciting job I’m going to be working on this semester (I’m not sure if I can talk about it so I’m not saying what it is yet!) which will take up a lot of my time, so I don’t know how much time I’ll have left for blogging. So, just as a precaution, I may not be as consistent as I want to be. But I’m going to give blogging my best shot. I’ve got some ideas that I’m excited to work on and hope you all enjoy!
the reading slump
Oh gosh guys.
The reading slump?
I told myself that winter break was going to my reading marathon time, but instead I’ve been so brain-dead that I can barely do more than watch TV when it comes time to chill out. Forget that huge stack of library books I got at the beginning of break, I’m not more than fifty pages into any of the books I started.
But, at the same time, I also don’t really…care?
For the first time in my life, I’m realizing there isn’t a pressure for me to read. I’m not getting ARCs, there’s no one demanding reviews of me, I’m not taking any blog tours or promotions, it’s just me and my little blog and the books if I’m feeling like reading. To be able to go into the library and say “Hmm, this looks cool–I’m going to read it!” For the first time, I can think “Hey! I want to read some adult books! And I have the ability to do it without having to rush it!” or realizing “This is backlist? SO WHAT!”
Those thoughts are so freeing.
But: I’m not reading.
The prospect of reading just…isn’t exciting me like it used to? I don’t feel the desire to read.
And this PAINS me.
My plan of action? Sit in this place. Read when I want. Not pressure myself to read, and instead spend my time doing things I really want to do. Focus my energies in other places for a little while. I will always go back to reading, but maybe I need a little break right now.
Who knows? Maybe I’ll start reading obscure Ukranian fiction. (That was the weirdest thing I could think of.)
There’s a lot of pressure in the blogging world to feel like you HAVE to read. That you’re crazy if you just don’t feel like reading. I thought for a long time the way to combat that was to force myself to read. But what if that doesn’t work? What if that just pushes off a larger issue?
So I’m letting my body and mind run the show here. I’m letting go of the niggling feeling that’s screaming “YOU! MUST! WRITE! OR! YOUR! LIFE! WILL! BE! OVER! AND! YOU! WILL! NO! LONGER! BE! HUMAN!” (Okay, maybe not that dramatic. But you get the jist.)
Either way, here we go friends! Let’s see where this semester takes us. I’m hoping the reading comes back, but I’m not making any promises. I’m in a slump, and I’m kind of….enjoying it?
How are you guys doing? Any fellow slump-ees out there? TELL ME YOUR FEELINGS.