11/19/15

Who Am I Without Blogging?

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Today on “Let’s Chat”: Who Am I Without Blogging?

The other day I was reading one of my best friends Jen’s blog, J(en)’adore and ran across this post on how college has changed her reading habits. The last one is that she doesn’t feel like blogging, which really resonated with me – all bloggers have been there. Once I started to think about my own times of hiatus I started to wonder what had made me want to continue blogging?

Then I realized I was scared.

I was really, really freaking scared of not blogging.

And then I thought, why am I scared of not blogging?

And I realized that I don’t know who I am without blogging.

Blogging has been a part of my daily life since I was eleven. I’m seventeen now. That’s six years of my life, dominated by a hobby that has become my passion and has led me to my future career. It’s something that I see as a part of who I am and defines me as me in my own eyes. So, that begs the question – who am I without it?

There have been so many times where I’ve considered quitting, and I always say my friends pull me back in, which is completely true, but I also think my own fear of stopping keeps me going. I love blogging so much that I fear that without it I won’t have anything that makes me me anymore.

I’m really nervous about my future, too. College, specifically. What happens to my blog in college? Will I still read? Will I still want to blog? Will it fall to the wayside? I’ve always dreamed of being a college blogger, but what if I’m not college blogger material?

There are so many questions coming at me about the coming year, and one of those is my own: what is the future of Willa’s Ramblings? It’s been with me through so much of my life, with the same name and the same general focus. It’s kept me driven and motivated and forced me to go outside my comfort zone. It’s given me skills like nothing else could, and has taught me about the true meaning of the word community. I feel like I’d be letting myself down if I quit blogging – like all of this work had been for nothing.

And that’s probably all a bunch of crap, but it’s still something I wonder about. It’s one of those thoughts I prefer not to think about because it freaks me out, but here I am, talking about it. And publishing it.

So let me know in comments about your own fears. Bloggers, do you fear the same thing? Do you have the same questions? Let me know! 

  • Rachel

    Oh god, do I see myself in this post. You know a little bit about my on and off relationship with blogging, but much of the behind the scenes had to do with the exact questions you’re asking yourself. It took me a LONG time to figure out who I was without my blog. And there are still times where I feel unmoored, like I’ve lost a part of my family (though much of that is my own fault + being too busy with grad school to spend much time on social media). It hasn’t necessarily been a fun process figuring out who I am if not a blogger, but this whole thing showed me how important it was not to put my entire identity into one thing/activity like I had with blogging. Honestly though, my best advice is try not to stress about it too much. If you need to take a hiatus, go ahead. If you’re not feeling blogging, don’t do it. You don’t have to QUIT if you still feel like you want to blog from time to time. It doesn’t have to be either/or, you know? You could be an occasional poster, or a regular one. Whatever works for you. Flexibility is key.

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  • Jen

    SO SORRY I DIDN’T GET TO COMMENT ON THIS UNTIL NOW. But omg yes. I can’t even fathom what my life would be like without blogging. It’s so crazy that it’s a potential career now, but don’t worry Willa. If I can read & blog in college, YOU CAN TOO. It’s honestly not as hard as you think it might be. And if you start feeling like you want to quit… I gotcha back!! <3

    xoxo,
    Jen

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